2. Day 26: No One Understands Me
Yesterday we practiced expanding the size of our seeing to notice when Wrong IS. Today let’s look at when we feel that wrongness in the way we are not being understood by others. Depression’s 21 fears must work very hard at covering over our awareness of Love’s Presence which is why it feels so exhausting. The fear of not being understood (and there’s no point of explaining myself) can be very limiting to your awareness of your own self. 17. Fear of not being understood (there is no point in explaining myself) It is time to extend love to this thought: I...
Read More2. Day 25: Fear Of Being Wrong
Let’s just get this one right out in the open for all to see. We are all afraid of being wrong. Because right is, well, RIGHT. Wrong is NOT being right. Wrong is confirmation of being wrong; missing the mark; not being good enough (or fast enough or clever enough). Wrong is the opposite of getting what you thought you wanted. Wrong is losing, forgetting, being late. Wrong is your Mother winning (or your spouse or annoying neighbor). Wrong is missing the boat, the plane or the point. Wrong is not knowing what to do. Wrong is throwing in the towel. Wrong is a terrible case of...
Read More2. Day 24: Being With Being Alone
It is a perfect day yet I am weary of depression; of thinking about it and extending love to it. It feels as if I have gotten to take on the mantle of depression for the month, like a character, and write and ask from this space. I am now itching to throw off that cloak of stillness and run barefoot through the grass. I want juicy, vibrant and alive! We now look at the fear of being left behind from the “21 Fear Salute” of depression. This fear of being left behind might actually be a blessing. Is this what gets me moving into action? I can clearly remember the first...
Read More2. Day 23: Change Is
Does everybody have cancer? You either have it yourself or someone close to you has it. I have a loved one battling today that invisible fear we call cancer. I noticed on Facebook and overheard grocery store and business conversations that so many are fighting this battle, this fear, this irrevocable change. Change in health, in prognosis for the future, in daily life. If we are all connected then why are we doing this to ourselves? We are afraid of change as much as anything. This is a core fear in depression too. Me: How can I be with all of this in peace? HS: Dearest One, know I...
Read More2. Day 22: Vulnerability & Truth
I am beginning to realize that all these fears in the “21 Fear Salute” of depression are all kind of the same. The fear of truth. We are so afraid that Love is not the truth about us that even though we long for, hope, cross our fingers we still do not feel sure. The next fear which is the fear of being exposed uncovers a broader truth. We actually are afraid LOVE is the truth about us. 13. Fear of being exposed This is deep yet universal. It is what we think vulnerability will feel like; exposed, naked, without excuse. When I feel exposed I feel very uncomfortable...
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