1. Day 22: Fame Is a Flashlight
Weirdly I have discovered underneath my fear of commitment lies what I call a feeder-fear; this is a fear of fame. I know it sounds ridiculous because what are the odds of “fame” occurring because of what I write on a blog? Especially since I have yet to put any hustle into sharing the blog (I am leaving that totally up to my Holy Spirit btw). Fame is one way of putting being known for who and what you are or stand for. I guess I need to hear about fame because that is exactly what I asked. Me: These days people taste fame, at least for a moment, fairly easily and quickly with YouTube,...
Read More1. Day 21: Commitment, a Difference of Opinion
I spoke yesterday of the onslaught of experiences being sustained by my nearest and dearest. This gives me a perfect opportunity to extend love to my fear of commitment. Here is where commitment, in my opinion, goes awry. I am fully committed to my beloved partner of 30 plus years. I also am beginning to be fully committed to my own heart. So what happens when we see things differently and want to approach how to help someone in distress in totally different ways? Here is the very helpful answer from Holy Spirit, one that I will return to again and again when opinions differ amongst...
Read More1. Day 20: An Onslaught
Over the past three days various loved ones in my circle are facing: Good news, bad news, a diagnosis, an accusation, huge financial shortfall, a happy arrival, leaving a favored job. I feel all of these things as if they were happening to me directly. I am not sure if this is an awareness of oneness or just how life works. In this light, my plan to extend love to commitment seams silly or beside the point. What does commitment matter in the face of this onslaught of life? Today extending love to commitment feels more like a commitment to love. I feel as if some watershed moment—a...
Read More1. Day 19: A Block to Love’s (& Commitment’s) Presence
In meditation I had this thought: The layered difficult circumstances that I thought were “why” I couldn’t express my Self (not the right time; someone will be upset/hurt; this is heresy; it’s not my place) I saw as a bulwark dam I had built to keep from expressing truth. Why did I do this to myself? HS: Dearest One, This is an experience you give yourself over and over again just to see how long you can stand it—like holding your breath under water as a child. Fear not the meaning. The world is made of this; experiments of experience and trial and error to see if it is possible to live...
Read More1. Day 18: Prayer & Intention
HS, please help me be aware and delight in all the help, support, information I might need in my twelvemonth.me project. Let this be fun, juicy and uplifting. I love the help from unexpected sources that comes to me. I am learning this technology of a new blog with ease and I am loving it. I actually enjoy the process of posting, maintaining and sharing my experience. Please guide me in this that I may always ask first so I share a full experience of you, of US. Thank you, amen. OH! I just realized my friend’s change of heart re helping me is a VOTE FOR MY VOICE. It is confirmation I...
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