1. Day 27: Extending Love All the way Home
What are the conditions I have been placing around myself with this Twelvemonth.me extending love to fears project? I’ve decided these conditions like “I can’t explain myself to the designer!” or “It’s too hard!!!” are like Lego bricks I’ve strewn across the floor. As I step on one barefoot and wince in pain and say “OUCH!! That really hurt!!” I am reminded to open my eyes and see truly where I am. Can I walk around the Lego? Can I pick up the bricks? If I proceed slowly will the Lego bricks act as a bridge of sorts over something else to quicken the creative process? I am noticing it...
Read More1. Day 26: The Unfolding of Joy
I am feeling slow-ish and tired (headache too) from last days of frenetic activity. I have so much to do before tomorrow……… “I Am Here Now” Quiet Blanket Tea Candle Clock-tick Heartbeat Breath Comfort Uninterrupted Peace I noticed in the whirl of yesterday that fear of commitment without the fear is just commitment. Me: Why have I feared commitment in work (especially) for so long? HS: Because your fear kept you from remembering your heart, your Self. As soon as this happens all is fraught with struggle and backwards thinking. You have always thought you should be able to see the...
Read More1. Day 25: Love Is Vast Enough
I am feeling a little (actually A LOT) cornered by time. My week is full. Help! This thought, a benediction from my heart revives me: Love is vast enough to hold all my time, appointments, plans and schedule. This bears repeating. Every five minutes if needed: LOVE IS VAST ENOUGH (Love Is –inhale….Vast Enough–exhale x repeat as needed) Me: What do I need right now? I feel ever so slightly fidgety and rushed. This is the part of commitment I question; it takes up a lot of space and energy. Here I am, in my quiet time, and thoughts, ideas, ponderings keep popping...
Read More1. Day 24: Rocking the Vastness
Today I am feeling the waffling of downsizing my commitment of a daily post: It is not needed. It will inundate my brother. I’m painting myself into a corner. Is this really fun? Why? HS: Why not? Me: Why not???? Exactly!! Why the heck NOT?! It won’t hurt, I write everyday anyway. An ambitious goal gets my juices flowing. I want to blow myself away in amazement. I want a searchable record. It IS fun! Oh Yeah! Now I remember!! Thanks! Just when I needed some encouragement for this epic commitment of a daily blog posting project this perfect quote appeared before my very eyes: “Your love...
Read More1. Day 23: Itching Relieves Tension
Today commitment is like the annoying itch I have at the moment. To be honest, I want more to know about the itching that I want to know about commitment. Me: What is this itching about? It comes replete with both full-on annoyance and delicious satisfaction. It keeps coming back, is this some form of self-medication? Please help me see here, thank you. HS: Your body continues to call out for care: movement, moisture, nourishment, stretch, openness and strength. Me: Honestly, I get tired of my body’s needs. How can I see this differently? Whoa! This thought just snuck into my...
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