Fear of Letting Go

4. Day 11: Enlightenment Begins At Home

Posted by on Jul 11, 2014 in All-One, Fear of Letting Go | 2 comments

4. Day 11:  Enlightenment Begins At Home

I believe my letting go practice is very much about letting go of  my unwillingness to fully inhabit my joy.  I am a naturally “upbeat’ person, laugh easily, enjoy the littlest of things (like brushing my teeth or the sound of my children chewing) but I recognize that I have such a deep sense of worry for the welfare of others that I am distracted from being fully aware of my own joy.  It is perfect timing to find this beautiful book “Journeys With A Brother” by Bartholomew and the Dalai Lama. This is the story of a group of intrepid travelers who accompany...

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4. Day 10: An Unwillingness For Joy?

Posted by on Jul 10, 2014 in All-One, Fear of Letting Go, Holy Spirit Says | 4 comments

4. Day 10:  An Unwillingness For Joy?

Yesterday I uncovered my unwillingness for joy.  I still don’t know quite how this is happening so naturally I asked Holy Spirit to share more on this topic of joy and my [apparent] unwillingness for it. HS:  Dearest One, You are unwilling for joy because you believe you are unworthy of this state. You cite other sadness and grief in the world as your reason to not fully in habit your joyous, joyful, joy abiding Self. Hear this and do not waiver.  You are the joy that will allow, encourage, inspire and lead your brothers in this world back into the full realization and willingness of...

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4. Day 9: Let Go Of Your Unwillingness

Posted by on Jul 9, 2014 in All-One, Fear of Letting Go | 0 comments

4. Day 9:  Let Go Of Your Unwillingness

Thank you for this letting go practice (in my twelvemonth of self love).  I really needed it this month. There have been so many epic events one right after another that without letting go each and every day I would have completely expired.  Focussing on letting go right now is giving me the experience of really being in the moment.  Since I keep letting go thoughts, plans, memories, should’s etc I am feeling the power of NOW. Strangely it seems both a big deal and not a big deal.  Epic and mundane.  Amazing and ordinary.  I feel like it all already happened. I asked Holy Spirit for a...

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4. Day 8: Be Still

Posted by on Jul 8, 2014 in All-One, Fear of Letting Go | 0 comments

4. Day 8:  Be Still

I am feeling the BIGNESS of all that is going on right now.  The BIG milestones (graduations, weddings, reunions) are just so huge I am having a hard time focussing on the details.  Thank you for my guidance in all of this, thank you for the accomplishments of all concerned and thank you for all the miracles that have occurred along the way to make it all possible.  To be honest there is a lot to let go of. What do I need right now? HS:  Precious One, Be still and know that I am God. I will and do care for you in infinite and intimate ways. Be still and know that you are true, whole, willing...

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4. Day 7: Self Takes Care Of Self

Posted by on Jul 7, 2014 in All-One, Fear of Letting Go | 1 comment

4. Day 7:  Self Takes Care Of Self

With so many lovely visitors I am having a hard time getting my eating right.  Too much or too little at all the wrong times.  I end up eating just to give myself a bit of slow down time and then end up too slowed down. Ugh.  I feel the results of stress but am only in the middle of happy things, can that be stressful too?  What can I do? HS:  Let go of a meal today. Me:  Good idea.  I will go against habit and skip my smoothie for breakfast.  How else can I eat more whole food and deal with the stress of such a busy time? HS:  Dearest One, Thank you for asking and for taking time to sink...

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4. Day 6: Breath Takes A Holiday

Posted by on Jul 6, 2014 in All-One, Fear of Letting Go, Poetry | 0 comments

4. Day 6:  Breath Takes A Holiday

My family recently travelled to Ashland, OR and to Crater Lake National Park.  This was a brief but chock-a-block full two days which included:  lunch in Shasta City, photo op & tee shirt purchases in Weed, CA (how could you not stop and get a picture of that sign?), Klamath River, Oregon boarder celebration (my step mother’s 50th State on her bucket list of all fifty states!  Woo hoo!!!), tea & cookies at hotel, dinner at Larks, a brilliant all female production of Two Gentlemen of Verona (at Ashland’s famous Shakespeare Festival), running into an old friend of my...

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