5. Day 4: Walk With Me
I am really feeling the end of weeks, nay months, of constant importance of right now (weddings, graduations, commissioning, reunions, travels etc). I feel ready to be done with it. There have been so many important, wonderful events, visits, transitions and they are taking their toll of sorts. I can’t quite express it but a lot of seeming “once in a lifetime” feelings have left me feeling rather worn out. Not necessarily in the sense of ‘I don’t want them to happen’ but my own excitement and way of responding leaves me feeling depleted. The rise of...
Read More5. Day 3: Tapping Into The Truth
My walk this morning was less vast, more slog. I could barely connect with the beauty of land, sky and domicile. When I rounded the end of our street I started tapping (A protocol of awareness that works incredibly well; you tap certain points on head and face in order while repeating “Even though…….; I deeply and completely love and accept myself”. This is used most effectively with trauma and thoughts/emotions you just can’t get around/through.) I was willing to try anything to get over the impossibility of EVERY DAY, especially on only the third day. tap,...
Read More5. Day 2: Walking A Mile In My Own Shoes
Let’s begin extending love to EVERY DAY by doing something every day that needs love. Thus, I walked one mile with our corgi, Rugby. It felt really good and coolish in the early morning after the heat yesterday. I wasn’t planning on taking the dog but he appeared at the back door as soon as he saw my tennis shoes come out of the closet. He loves walking so much that he actually kept my normally lackadaisical pace up enough to get my blood pumping. These thoughts were crowding in my mind like some kind of filled to the brim dessert tray: I want to do this/ I don’t want to...
Read More5. Day 1: Monk Habits For Everyday People
As I continue my twelvemonth project and practice of extending love to my fears, I feel the calling/longing of my body and I am willing to be willing. Please give me an AHA and sign to get myself over the hump I feel I am in front of. These words came to me while coming back down the hall with my tea: EVERY DAY I sat down and put my tea on the table and noticed a book I ordered weeks ago yet have not read: “Monk Habits for EVERYDAY People”—by Dennis Okholm Wow! This is not going to be a 4am revelation is it? Am I increasing my willingness and listening such that we can...
Read More4. Day 31: This Post Rated XXX
I think the biggest lesson I have experienced in extending love to letting go is seeing that I truly have everything I need in every moment. Not as in a platitude but in reality. I have everything I need because my heart is everything I need. In my heart are desires, guidance, delights and I need but follow them and I end up experiencing peace in the midst of whatever is going on. This past weekend we packed and were ready to drive to Los Angeles on business. We went out to the garage to get out my husband’s car and this is what we found: Whoa!! This rather makes it impossible to...
Read More4. Day 30: Letting Go Of Today
As my month of extending love to the fear of letting go wraps up I stand in gratitude for all I have come to see. A mere four weeks ago (!) I held tightly to all I loved (and even to anything I didn’t love, now that I think about it) and could see no other way of being. The month my Holy Friend chose for me to remind myself of the Love that I am in the form of a month of extending love to the fear of Letting Go. My practice extending love to letting go this month has released something new, yet ancient in me. I don’t need to “hold on tight” to anything, not even...
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