3. Day 25: Gratitude Is Good For What Ails You
I am feeling low, like I want to stay in bed for a week. The last few weeks have been incredibly hectic with nearly every moment scheduled. Time to extend love. I extend absolution to this thought. Interestingly I feel guilty both for wanting to stay in bed AND for the week being so full. (why do I always do that?). I also feel guilty for the thought of canceling everything (or anything really). Finally I remember to ask. Me: What is it I really need/want to do? HS (gave me this list which will guide me over the next days): bath, water, cleansing tea, nap, one day at a time, make a list,...
Read More3. Day 18: Over-thinking Guilt Pays Off
Why DO I choose guilt? Seriously. WHY? Guilt is the only way I know of that covers an inequitable situation: 1. the thing I want and need for me & 2. the thing I should want and need for me. It is what I use to cover the seeming disparity between following my own heart and yet seeing myself or a loved one need or expect something different. I guess I feel like I should pay a penalty of sorts for following my own heart/desire rather than what I or God (or a loved one) expects of me, or what should be the best. Me: HS, how else can I view the seeming disparity between what I want...
Read More1. Day 20: An Onslaught
Over the past three days various loved ones in my circle are facing: Good news, bad news, a diagnosis, an accusation, huge financial shortfall, a happy arrival, leaving a favored job. I feel all of these things as if they were happening to me directly. I am not sure if this is an awareness of oneness or just how life works. In this light, my plan to extend love to commitment seams silly or beside the point. What does commitment matter in the face of this onslaught of life? Today extending love to commitment feels more like a commitment to love. I feel as if some watershed moment—a...
Read More1. Day 17: Trusting My Inner Guidance
Me: How can I fully, or more fully, trust my own guidance, revelation and truth? HS: Dear One, This is the way. Right here. Right now. Notice. Allow. Listen. Trust is built of these things. Blind trust is a baby step, a tiny willingness to move into a situation without knowing the outcome. You are learning to trust with eyes fully open. Not-Knowing is not blind. Not-Knowing is willingness to see beyond what is known and move fully into the Love that you are. This is the Not-Known. You do not yet fathom who and what you are. YOU are the Not-Knowing. It is your not knowing...
Read More1. Day 16: A Second Helping of Disappointment
This morning I am very aware of the whispering thoughts in my head that are stewing in back-burner disappointment. My friend, my buddy, my partner in all things spiritual wanted to help edit, proof and possibly post my blog. I was so relieved as this type of technical input baffles and bewilders me. In following her own guidance she changed her mind several days later and begged off leaving me startled and unsure of myself. Here is the message from HS: HS: Trust her on her path even as you trust yourself on your own path. There is room for all paths. Light shows the way. The way is...
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