10. Day 15: This Wretched Glory
Not fearing fear itself is better said by “allowing fear to be”. And fear is just another form of energy squeezing, shifting and tightening. Like what I am feeling right now. I would not describe this as fear exactly but more of a broiling kettle of near grief. Not end-of-life grief but an ending nevertheless. Our magnificent holiday ended with a sort of mini family gathering vacation at home. My youngest daughter had to return to the US to get a different visa for a longer stay in England and the fiance of my older daughter was able to get duty here for two weeks so joined...
Read More10. Day 14: A Year Without Fear
One of my finds of the new year is a wonderful book called “A Year Without Fear” by Tama Kieves. Ms. Kieves has been a favorite author of mine for years ever since I read her first book “This Time I Dance” her story of going to Harvard Law School, graduating with honors and ultimately leaving her law practice to pursue the desires of her heart. Naturally I was mesmerized. Her newest book, “A Year Without Fear” is not unlike my blog. It is a daily dose of love and fearlessness to remind you that you are love and to embrace whatever is in front of you...
Read More10 Day 13: 100 Reasons Why Debt Is My Friend
Just the word debt makes me shrink and tighten. I get internally what a teenage friend of my girls’ once called “sphincter face”. You know, the face you make when you see one of those terrible accidents unfolding on a You Tube video or when you take a big bite out of a lemon. This is the epitome of tighten, resist and STOP the flow (of thought, or feeling, of life). As this blog and my year of Twelvemonth of Self Love is all about extending love to my thoughts I was shown yesterday that I have a whopping area that I allow Love’s Presence to be blocked and that is...
Read More10. Day 12: Let Debt Inspire
This morning I woke up with fear itself sitting on my chest, whispering in my ear “It’s time to pay the Piper”. I listened for awhile, hanging my head in agreement, thinking this amounted to extending love and being with but I still felt hounded, a little breathless and a tad guilty. I mean I did just declare by my very actions that it is AOK to take off on a trip for seven weeks to do business certainly but there was a lot of eating, drinking and making merry. I should pay for this, right? I certainly should pay my credit card debt and I should redouble my daily...
Read More10. Day 11: On Blogging Daily & Going Commando
I am only now beginning to glimpse how valuable this daily blog is to me. I began with guidance, in this case the word “twelvemonth”. Then twelvemonth revealed itself as a “Twelvemonth of Self Love”. I already journal daily. I am also composing a Holy Dictionary with the incredible and beautiful definitions I hear from Holy Spirit. I write poetry because even my own wordiness gets in my way of expression and only the limits of a poem offers the relief of truth expressed. I also wrote a blog called Salvation Chronicles when I was first testing out my voice,...
Read More10. Day 10: Fear Is A Stoplight
I woke up today with a feeling of shadow passing over me. I didn’t feel grey exactly but there was definitely a presence of gray with a soupçon of lurking. Since I actually feel rested, happy and satisfied I could notice this “feeling presence” without alarm. I got up and decided to have a cup of tea with this gray feeling presence and see what happened. First I lit a candle, put the kettle on and generally got comfortable. The gray seemed less ominous already but still present, just out of sight. Then these words floated into my awareness: Fear is a stoplight. Oh....
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