1. Day 8: Willingness, A Force to Be Reckoned With
Here is what I hate about commitment. It feels forced, like the only way it will/can happen is if “I force myself against my will”. I don’t really believe this but there is background noise that seems to believe this in me. Me: What is it that feels like forcing? What am I doing to myself to feel this way? HS: Precious One, good morning my dear child, my own dear One. You still believe there is a FORCE other than you own. You believe there is Me and you. There is only One. Just as within you is every age you have been; the four year old accepting Christ, the nineteen year old...
Read More1. Day 9: Extending Love to My Self
Today I am stuck in the sinking mire of doubt. I feel pulled down by a flattening energy drain. I extend optimism and light to this thought. I am willing to be free from “stuck” because I am willing to extend love in whatever form “stuck” needs until flow is reestablished. This writing and expressing my own holiness is not fearful, it is how many will awaken to their holiness within. The joy and wonder we each feel is multiplied exponentially in all. The Oneness is beginning to make sense. The Force of Willingness is no longer feared. I am light and free in my own body. I nourish myself...
Read More1. Day 7: The Tale of Two Commitments
Every day I come to “Extending Love to Commitment” and something new appears. Today two commitments faced off. Which one won? Keep reading. I have always believed the struggle is not between Good and Evil. The real difficulty that cannot be solved in the mind alone is between Good and Good. When you begin to see all-is-good then you are really in for a heart lesson. This morning I woke at 5am and still had not decided whether to go to a training event (our business was running for our members) or to stay home for my committed day of writing. Imagine the face off of two perfectly good...
Read More1. Day 6: Judgment Meets It’s Maker
I frequently begin a post with my thoughts, as that is how I live. As I am aware of my thoughts and how I relate to them so goes my day. How I relate to my thoughts produces my experience. So I extend space to my thoughts. I am afraid I will lose myself and not feel joy in the face of commitment. I love a fluid space in which to work, I instantly give myself rules and quotas and am hard and judgmental when I commit to a task, whether it is going to the gym, eating well or taking care of business. It is the powerful judgment that seems to arise in me I don’t like to feel, it makes me feel...
Read More1. Day 5: Me, Myself, & I
I am beginning to notice a pattern. Me in fear. Me in my right mind. Then deeper still Me in my Holiness (I still call this Holy Spirit because when I begin it still feels a l….o…..n…….g way away from who and where I am). 4am Me in fear: I feel nervous, excited and stupid (Why am I doing this to myself?) I fear the focus on fear. (What you focus on multiplies.) I am afraid of getting obsessive (Who me?). This must be why alcoholics avoid drink. Am I this way about work/a specific project? Do I obsess and abandon all Self in the ensuing crush of insanity? Is there something else...
Read More1. Day 4: BE JUICY EXPRESS LOVE
More thoughts re my fear of commitment: I’m afraid if I commit to a project and am successful, I might outshine another who needs success more than I. I’m afraid I haven’t thought of everything. I’m still counting on SOMEONE ELSE to give me the go ahead, the approval, the big thumbs up. Can I really, truly trust my OWN inner guidance on this blog? I don’t’ know where to write what, help, help, HELP, HELP!!!!!!!!!!! I need large chunks of time without appointment or plan. I love to soak in the holiness of my own heart. When I play the whirligig game of fast living the world insists on, I give...
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