4. Day 4: Not Even Fourth Nature
I have to admit that letting go is not second (or third or fourth) nature to me. I feel like there is a tense energy that wants to ball up like a fist in me; it wants to strike out and see things it wants to be different and fix/change them. I feel this fist in my head and gut. So it is a good thing I am practicing extending love to my fear of letting go. I need to let go I just don’t know how. I extend awareness to this thought. Somehow just (!) being aware of this tight fist of hanging on to wanting things to be different allows me to be with it a few moments. In those few...
Read More4. Day 3: Letting Go Is A Gift
When I am in a hurry, or tired or just plain curious. I will ask Holy Spirit a question and then just flip open a sacred text or favorite spiritual tome to see if a perspective or deepening opens up in me. (To be honest this works even when I use the comics because the power is in the asking and the noticing.) I asked Holy Spirit to share what the letting go energy was and how I can use/see it and this passage in NTI leapt out at me: “Look upon your gift and rejoice. It is an expression given by you. Its’ purpose is your own joy. Accept it is joy and it is joy that you shall...
Read More4. Day 2: Room Assignments, Longmire & Shoes
I can’t seem to feel the letting-go energy without adding a final “d”–to feel letting God. I know I have been afraid to let go but right now as I feel into the the letting-go(d) I am relieved, delighted and exhilarated. Up until recently I know that I had to hang on tight: to what I know to be true, for safety and for certainty (a bird in hand). I just walked out in full forward motion to the back porch with tea and journal in hand and my tow caught the edge of the footrest and I nearly want a** over teacup. The blockage stopped and redirected this powerful...
Read More4. Day 1: Letting Go Of Velociraptors Is Easy
Letting go of velociraptors is easy; letting go of fear (and your favorite pair of pj’s) is hard. Or so I thought. I have noticed over the month (of extending love to guilt) I have been feeling a growing letting go energy. It feels like a flow of spaciousness that just IS. I noticed it first when talking to my daughter about wanting to get a new sofa and dining chairs. I am realizing I am ready to let go all kinds of stuff that I have previously clung too as my life and identity. I asked Holy Spirit how I can remain open to this energy. HS: Dearest One, Thank you for noticing this...
Read More3. Day 30: Veil Sale
Today is the last day of extending love to guilt for this month three of my Twelvemonth of Self Love project. What is exceedingly obvious now is that guilt is not the truth about me. It is but a story of “not-me” I believe for a while until I return to my right mind, or sanity or the awareness of God-is-Love’s Presence. I have learned I can drop the veil of guilt at any time and experience the truth of me in that moment by extending love to my thoughts and feelings even with, perhaps especially with, guilt. I can do this in bed, at the airport, washing dishes, taking a...
Read More3. Day 29: Sunday Meditation
Thank you for the delicious meditation this morning. Thank you especially for this thought: What if I remembered ONLY myself? In that moment, all my thoughts, plans, roles, identities neatly fell away as I simply was in peace, tranquility, quiet, gentle joy and wholeness. Thank you so much for this! I feel restored, refreshed and re-JOYed. The absence of guilt reveals the Presence of Love: whole, clean, empty yet fulfilled precious, tender, comfort-able willing to be yesterday, today and forever certain of holiness and truth open, welcoming and treasured delighted, joyful and...
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