Posts Tagged "month 4"

4. Day 26: The Monotony Of Doubt

Posted by on Jul 26, 2014 in All-One, Fear of Letting Go | 12 comments

4. Day 26:  The Monotony Of Doubt

It always amazes me how I can doubt (or fear or be annoyed) after feeling the face of God in my very hands. Yesterday I felt I could just about walk on water and today I wonder who in the heck is sitting here in my place.  The list of worries and doubts in my journal are laughable (from being a bad cousin to ‘WHY doesn’t the dog stop licking?’ to “Is my blog worthwhile?”).  The whole thing makes my head hurt and extending love is the only (!) thing I can do.  Why do I continue to fear letting go of doubt? I extend peace to these thoughts. I ask Holy Spirit for...

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4. Day 25: That’s What Friends Are For

Posted by on Jul 25, 2014 in All-One, Encouragement, Fear of Letting Go | 4 comments

4. Day 25:  That’s What Friends Are For

I think the hardest thing to let go is what I think about something.  Especially when that “something” is, in fact, nothing.  I am beginning to see I am not letting go of something,  I am simply allowing myself to live with hands (and eyes and heart) wide open.  I am not letting go of something I have a hold of, I am just letting go of thinking I have a hold of something.  This morning a book sitting on my book shelf caught my eye.  This is significant because I look at the book shelf every day and today one book literally called to me.  It must be just what I need right now.  I...

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4. Day 24: When You Utterly Relax Into The Light

Posted by on Jul 24, 2014 in All-One, Fear of Letting Go | 2 comments

4. Day 24:  When You Utterly Relax Into The Light

After celebrating my daughter’s 21 st birthday yesterday (in fact the fun continues for the next few days;) I was asking myself, what is it I am actually letting go in seeing her move on into what the world seems to agree on as adulthood, after all she has been living on her own at college, flew to Italy alone last summer and has already voted in a Presidential election?  When I think of letting go as saying goodbye I am filled with conflicting emotions, happy/sad, delight/doubt, jubilation/trepidation.  When I allow the thought of letting go as possibly me opening my eyes and letting...

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4. Day 22 & Day 23: 21 Years True

Posted by on Jul 23, 2014 in All-One, Fear of Letting Go | 2 comments

4. Day 22 & Day 23:  21 Years True

The sharing of this letting go required two days worth to include both Australian and American sides of the story.  Well, actually, it has required 21 years (and counting).  Today is my youngest daughter’s 21st birthday.  It is cause for celebration, shopping, laughing, candles, champagne………..and reflection.  I am beginning to realize the gift of letting go is most often in the reflection of all that has come before the seeming “moment” of letting go.  In this case my daughter’s arrival began in the middle of the night in Brisbane, Australia with a...

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4. Day 21: How Do I Love Thee?

Posted by on Jul 21, 2014 in All-One, Fear of Letting Go, Poetry | 0 comments

4. Day 21:  How Do I Love Thee?

The days have been so full and my quiet time and meditation are happening in all kinds of ways (and at odd times) and I am feeling a little discombobulated.  Where do I need my awareness to grow? HS:  Let us nestle together in peace now.  Abide in me as I abide in you. Bring me the treasures of my heart that I may once again know the truth.   “How Do I Love Thee?” How do I love Thee, let me count the ways in innocence, in pain, in strength, in loneliness in joy, in sadness, in bereavement, and in gladness in toil, in rest, in anger, in jest in truth, in lying, in living and in...

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