12. Day 20: Do You Feel An Opening?
I asked Holy Spirit about extending love to the fear of feelings and was beginning to wonder if I was making any progress at all. Me: Am I even dealing with feeling in love this month? Am I even extending love to my own feelings? HS: You are accepting in peace the feelings all around you. In doing this you remain open in welcome to your own feelings. They are guiding you into the experience of peace and delight you desire. Tired, relaxed, open, questioning, fearful, doubtful, present—these are all feelings. What is it you think you are looking for? Me: Well, a physical...
Read More12. Day 13: An Ekphrastic Pickle
I am in a pickle. Or rather I feel like a pickle (tart, juicy, but with pursed lips). This is the month I have chosen to extend love (and light and noticing) to my Feeling(s). For the past few years I have been experiencing (and writing about) God/God’s Love/the Universe in everything. I am inspired by the smallest camellia petal piled on the ground like so much fuchsia snow to the unexpected delight in our new shiny black garbage bin just delivered by the County. Why then, am I having no feelings for the art which is the subject of my poetry class at the Crocker? What is blocking...
Read More5. Day 2: Walking A Mile In My Own Shoes
Let’s begin extending love to EVERY DAY by doing something every day that needs love. Thus, I walked one mile with our corgi, Rugby. It felt really good and coolish in the early morning after the heat yesterday. I wasn’t planning on taking the dog but he appeared at the back door as soon as he saw my tennis shoes come out of the closet. He loves walking so much that he actually kept my normally lackadaisical pace up enough to get my blood pumping. These thoughts were crowding in my mind like some kind of filled to the brim dessert tray: I want to do this/ I don’t want to...
Read More4. Day 26: The Monotony Of Doubt
It always amazes me how I can doubt (or fear or be annoyed) after feeling the face of God in my very hands. Yesterday I felt I could just about walk on water and today I wonder who in the heck is sitting here in my place. The list of worries and doubts in my journal are laughable (from being a bad cousin to ‘WHY doesn’t the dog stop licking?’ to “Is my blog worthwhile?”). The whole thing makes my head hurt and extending love is the only (!) thing I can do. Why do I continue to fear letting go of doubt? I extend peace to these thoughts. I ask Holy Spirit for...
Read More4. Day 21: How Do I Love Thee?
The days have been so full and my quiet time and meditation are happening in all kinds of ways (and at odd times) and I am feeling a little discombobulated. Where do I need my awareness to grow? HS: Let us nestle together in peace now. Abide in me as I abide in you. Bring me the treasures of my heart that I may once again know the truth. “How Do I Love Thee?” How do I love Thee, let me count the ways in innocence, in pain, in strength, in loneliness in joy, in sadness, in bereavement, and in gladness in toil, in rest, in anger, in jest in truth, in lying, in living and...
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