5. Day 18: Holy-Spirit-To-Go
A comment a dear friend made to me recently opened my eyes wide in a new realization. The comment was to the effect that my life is always go, go, go, and go. This is of course true but the huge AHA was this: I was able to see the “go, go, go and go” as IN me rather than something happening TO me. This is a seemingly small shift but with epic reverberations. I feel a piece/peace falling into place and the acceptance of this part of me that wasn’t there before. I am so very grateful for this REAL-ization (and for my friend’s comment!). I know that the go/stop or...
Read More4. Day 20: You Are The Truth Of Your Path
There are times I question the path I am on. This spiritual path of knowing and trusting that not only God is Love but Love is God called me by name and I could not NOT answer. It would have been easier staying in church but that felt so limiting somehow. No doubt it was a limit I imposed on myself but even though I am happy where and who I am, I long for the old days of certainty. This is a path of embracing not-knowing. Sometimes, like today, the not-knowing is just too big and I want to go back to KNOWing without shadow or doubt. Time to extend love to my thoughts. I extend beauty to...
Read More4. Day 4: Not Even Fourth Nature
I have to admit that letting go is not second (or third or fourth) nature to me. I feel like there is a tense energy that wants to ball up like a fist in me; it wants to strike out and see things it wants to be different and fix/change them. I feel this fist in my head and gut. So it is a good thing I am practicing extending love to my fear of letting go. I need to let go I just don’t know how. I extend awareness to this thought. Somehow just (!) being aware of this tight fist of hanging on to wanting things to be different allows me to be with it a few moments. In those few...
Read More3. Day 30: Veil Sale
Today is the last day of extending love to guilt for this month three of my Twelvemonth of Self Love project. What is exceedingly obvious now is that guilt is not the truth about me. It is but a story of “not-me” I believe for a while until I return to my right mind, or sanity or the awareness of God-is-Love’s Presence. I have learned I can drop the veil of guilt at any time and experience the truth of me in that moment by extending love to my thoughts and feelings even with, perhaps especially with, guilt. I can do this in bed, at the airport, washing dishes, taking a...
Read More3. Day 7: Ancient Bank Account of Should
Am I the only one who is feeling the enormity of extending love to guilt? Where do I begin? how do I proceed? HS: Dearest One, Guilt is not nearly as complicated as you believe. Guilt is a long term, ancient bank account of should. You have been making deposits into this account from before your birth. Guilt firmly believes something should not happen or be: a crime, a thought, an omission, a presence, an amount, an event, a person, a race, a position. Both should NOT or should declare “This cannot be.” The truth is, it isn’t. All the terrible things you have done...
Read More3. Day 6: Centeredness or Spin?
Guilt worries. I never realized this about guilt, but it’s true. Guilt worries about what will happen as well as worries about what won’t happen. Guilt worries about what you should have done, what she could have said and what he shouldn’t have even thought of. Worry is central to guilt’s mantra of ” this is not enough”. So let’s connect again to your enoughness. Right now. No, don’t skim ahead to see if there is something new or more interesting. Right now is enough. Right here, on this page. It is enough to be...
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