4. Day 21: How Do I Love Thee?
The days have been so full and my quiet time and meditation are happening in all kinds of ways (and at odd times) and I am feeling a little discombobulated. Where do I need my awareness to grow? HS: Let us nestle together in peace now. Abide in me as I abide in you. Bring me the treasures of my heart that I may once again know the truth. “How Do I Love Thee?” How do I love Thee, let me count the ways in innocence, in pain, in strength, in loneliness in joy, in sadness, in bereavement, and in gladness in toil, in rest, in anger, in jest in truth, in lying, in living and...
Read More4. Day 20: You Are The Truth Of Your Path
There are times I question the path I am on. This spiritual path of knowing and trusting that not only God is Love but Love is God called me by name and I could not NOT answer. It would have been easier staying in church but that felt so limiting somehow. No doubt it was a limit I imposed on myself but even though I am happy where and who I am, I long for the old days of certainty. This is a path of embracing not-knowing. Sometimes, like today, the not-knowing is just too big and I want to go back to KNOWing without shadow or doubt. Time to extend love to my thoughts. I extend beauty to...
Read More4. Day 19: Let Go OH NO!
Letting go today was all about letting go of my old friend panic. Every time I thought “OH NO!” (Oh no, I’m not ready/ Oh no, I’m too busy and I don’t have enough time/ Oh no, it’s NOT time to eat again/ Oh no, I’m too tired for this now) in prepping for meetings, Crocker tours, writing a blog post, wondering what we would have for dinner I let go (again) of “Oh NO!!” It became my mantra today “LET GO OH NO/ LET GO OH NO/ LET GO OH NO”. I am grateful for this practice even though (especially) it shows me how I cling to...
Read More4. Day 18: The Opposite Of Letting Go
I have noticed how hard it is for our family to leave the house. It is a never ending, staggering, ridiculous parade of almost getting into the car but not quite that can take upwards of 20 minutes (more if we are going farther than the state border). It is like escaping the pull of gravity and feels like the very opposite of let go. It is almost comical but frequently annoying. What gives? How can I feel peace about this? HS: Now is not fleeting. It is All. Now is vast holiness, ever present and mindful, complete acceptance and welcome. Now is no-time. Wordless joy of being....
Read More4. Day 17: Extra Helpings Of Ordinary
I am alone in the house for the first time in weeks. The air is cool, the room shaded nicely by matchstick blinds on the porch. I am alone. Relief. Peace. Quiet. Joy. Breath. Time to notice I am here. Pace is stop. Halt. Desist. Off. Relaxation of letting go……………….. When there is always a next thing looming, however delightful, this moment already feels stolen. I lived these last weeks reasonably in the present moment. Truth is, the most momentous of graduation, commissioning, send off and arrival of quests were entirely ordinary–and that was...
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