3. Day 15: A Drop In Love Pressure
What does guilt feel like, in my body? It feels metallic, like an acid bath; cold heat, systemic, down and up from center, pouring, searing a thudding FULL STOP. It feels like what I imagine a mild electrocution might feel like. Me: Holy Spirit, what is this and why does it act in this way? HS: Dearest One, this experience you have with guilt is visceral, though not universal. You feel and are aware of the feelings of fear acutely. This has been a gift you are now ready and willing to open. Many of your brothers must wait to notice fear after it has upset the balance in their outer...
Read More2. Day 1: Hello Depression
I wondered how it would happen. At 4:37am I woke up and KNEW my next epic fear. It is DEPRESSION. For the first time this pall, this cloud, this vortex of thought and despair did not make my heart go cold and my head go numb. It had already happened the day before when a dear friend eked out: “Everything is difficult; I don’t want to do anything; everything seems heavy; I don’t see the point any way; I didn’t want to tell you because I like to share happy things.” I thought to myself later: OH NO!!!! Not again! (several of my nearest and dearest have experienced the spectrum of...
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