When I asked depression what do you feel like these are the fears that poured forth. Depression is quite dense, thick and airless. It is heavy, full and empty at the same time, and nebulous. The list of fears below is what came to me in the middle of the night and I wrote them down on my phone so I didn’t have to disturb my husband and the dogs out in the part of the house where my notebook was.
21 Fears of Depression
- Closed thought system
- Closed questions
Sneaking up on Depression
- Unwillingness
- Fear of the bigger picture
- Fear of Vastness
- Fear of Truth
- Fear of asking for help
- Fear of not being heard
- Fear of listening
- Fear of the heart; there is nothing there
- Fear of life; what’s the point?
- Fear of the way out; it’s too difficult
- Fear of being exposed
- Fear of change
- Fear of being left behind
- Fear of being wrong
- Fear of not being understood; & there’s no point explaining myself
- I don’t know what I really want
- Action is pointless unless I understand where it is leading; safety is essential
- I don’t want to know who I am because I know I won’t like what I see
- A very low opinion of everything & everyone (including self)
As the month unfolds I hope to extend love and tenderness to these fears in whatever ways my heart desires.
I feel like telling these fears: “Fear not. You are Home now, no harm can befall you. Come let me soothe your worried brow. All is well my precious ones.”
Hi Dear Eva, it has been months since i peeked on FB and I am so glad I saw your entry that led me to this site. How absolutely true your words are. I know depression and though I didn’t recognize these aspects while I experienced it, I certainly saw them clearly enough once the fog lifted.
Love you,
Joyce
I am sure Holy Spirit is showing me what I need to hear first. Whatever combination of thoughts produce the fog that veils Love in our awareness are benefitted by extending love to them. xo