Fear of Commitment – A Twelvemonth of Self Love https://www.twelvemonthselflove.com Tue, 29 Mar 2016 23:49:09 +0000 en-US hourly 1 https://wordpress.org/?v=5.9 67752113 1. Day 24: Rocking the Vastness https://www.twelvemonthselflove.com/1-day-24-rocking-the-vastness/ https://www.twelvemonthselflove.com/1-day-24-rocking-the-vastness/#comments Thu, 24 Apr 2014 05:00:08 +0000 http://www.twelvemonthselflove.com/?p=566 Today I am feeling the waffling of downsizing my commitment of a daily post: It is not needed. It will inundate my brother. I’m painting myself into a corner. Is this really fun? Why? HS: Why not? Me: Why not???? Exactly!! Why the heck NOT?! It won’t hurt, I write everyday anyway. An ambitious goal gets my juices flowing. I want to blow myself away in amazement. I want a searchable record.

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]]> https://www.twelvemonthselflove.com/1-day-24-rocking-the-vastness/feed/ 2 566 1. Day 23: Itching Relieves Tension https://www.twelvemonthselflove.com/1-day-23-itching-relieves-tension/ https://www.twelvemonthselflove.com/1-day-23-itching-relieves-tension/#comments Wed, 23 Apr 2014 05:00:35 +0000 http://www.twelvemonthselflove.com/?p=562 Today commitment is like the annoying itch I have at the moment. To be honest, I want more to know about the itching that I want to know about commitment. Me: What is this itching about? It comes replete with both full-on annoyance and delicious satisfaction. It keeps coming back, is this some form of self-medication? Please help me see here, thank you. HS: Your body continues to call out for...

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]]> https://www.twelvemonthselflove.com/1-day-23-itching-relieves-tension/feed/ 2 562 1. Day 22: Fame Is a Flashlight https://www.twelvemonthselflove.com/1-day-22-fame-is-a-flashlight/ https://www.twelvemonthselflove.com/1-day-22-fame-is-a-flashlight/#comments Tue, 22 Apr 2014 05:00:39 +0000 http://www.twelvemonthselflove.com/?p=557 Weirdly I have discovered underneath my fear of commitment lies what I call a feeder-fear; this is a fear of fame. I know it sounds ridiculous because what are the odds of “fame” occurring because of what I write on a blog? Especially since I have yet to put any hustle into sharing the blog (I am leaving that totally up to my Holy Spirit btw). Fame is one way of putting being known for who and...

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]]> https://www.twelvemonthselflove.com/1-day-22-fame-is-a-flashlight/feed/ 2 557 1. Day 16: A Second Helping of Disappointment https://www.twelvemonthselflove.com/1-day-16-a-second-helping-of-disappointment/ https://www.twelvemonthselflove.com/1-day-16-a-second-helping-of-disappointment/#respond Wed, 16 Apr 2014 05:00:16 +0000 http://www.twelvemonthselflove.com/?p=427 This morning I am very aware of the whispering thoughts in my head that are stewing in back-burner disappointment. My friend, my buddy, my partner in all things spiritual wanted to help edit, proof and possibly post my blog. I was so relieved as this type of technical input baffles and bewilders me. In following her own guidance she changed her mind several days later and begged off leaving me...

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]]> https://www.twelvemonthselflove.com/1-day-16-a-second-helping-of-disappointment/feed/ 0 427 1. Day 15: Creation is a By-product of the Awareness of Love https://www.twelvemonthselflove.com/1-day-15-creation-is-a-by-product-of-the-awareness-of-love/ https://www.twelvemonthselflove.com/1-day-15-creation-is-a-by-product-of-the-awareness-of-love/#comments Tue, 15 Apr 2014 05:00:59 +0000 http://www.twelvemonthselflove.com/?p=423 What DO I really want? I want commitment to matter, to show, to have a purpose. I want it to lead to revelation or greater awareness to Love’s presence and a greater awareness of my own strength, holiness and delight. If I’m honest, I feel commitment will also lead to a created form, a body of work or experience that is useful, precious and lovingly beneficial to all. I need to extend love to not...

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]]> https://www.twelvemonthselflove.com/1-day-15-creation-is-a-by-product-of-the-awareness-of-love/feed/ 1 423 1. Day 14: Disappointment Veils the Truth https://www.twelvemonthselflove.com/1-day-14-disappointment-veils-the-truth/ https://www.twelvemonthselflove.com/1-day-14-disappointment-veils-the-truth/#comments Mon, 14 Apr 2014 05:30:00 +0000 http://www.twelvemonthselflove.com/?p=415 I have been waiting for this one. Today I got to experience disappointment. It is real in this moment. I was to have some technical and moral support in this Twelvemonth.me project from a trusted source who, in following her own guidance, lovingly backed out. So now I get to extend love to someone else’s lack of commitment. The irony is rich. Of course there really IS no one else. It is my own...

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]]> https://www.twelvemonthselflove.com/1-day-14-disappointment-veils-the-truth/feed/ 4 415 1. Day 12: Sneaky Thoughts Can Block Your Awareness to Love’s Presence https://www.twelvemonthselflove.com/1-day-12-sneaky-thoughts-can-block-your-awareness-to-loves-presence/ https://www.twelvemonthselflove.com/1-day-12-sneaky-thoughts-can-block-your-awareness-to-loves-presence/#respond Tue, 08 Apr 2014 05:30:13 +0000 http://www.twelvemonthselflove.com/?p=382 I am feeling less daunted by my commitment to this Twelvemonth practice of extending love to epic fears. I feel supported, guided and curious within myself about where we are going. In the beginning, when the idea was first forming I thought I knew where I would start (money, food, stress etc.) but when fear of commitment was suggested by Holy Spirit I knew this would be a journey for me instead...

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]]> https://www.twelvemonthselflove.com/1-day-12-sneaky-thoughts-can-block-your-awareness-to-loves-presence/feed/ 0 382 1. Day 11: Be Soft with the Fear https://www.twelvemonthselflove.com/1-day-11-be-soft-with-the-fear/ https://www.twelvemonthselflove.com/1-day-11-be-soft-with-the-fear/#respond Mon, 07 Apr 2014 05:30:13 +0000 http://www.twelvemonthselflove.com/?p=378 Most days begin with my awareness of the thought “something is not quite perfect” or “I’m tired”. Usually their needs are obvious. This morning, however, I was confronted with unnamed fear and a feeling of lack of safety. Here is what Holy Spirit said: HS: Gently invite your fears to come and tell you what they most need you to know. All this timing is to be as it is. There is no need to force...

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]]> https://www.twelvemonthselflove.com/1-day-11-be-soft-with-the-fear/feed/ 0 378 1. Day 9: Extending Love to My Self https://www.twelvemonthselflove.com/1-day-9-extending-love-to-my-self/ https://www.twelvemonthselflove.com/1-day-9-extending-love-to-my-self/#comments Thu, 03 Apr 2014 17:29:33 +0000 http://www.twelvemonthselflove.com/?p=372 Today I am stuck in the sinking mire of doubt. I feel pulled down by a flattening energy drain. I extend optimism and light to this thought. I am willing to be free from “stuck” because I am willing to extend love in whatever form “stuck” needs until flow is reestablished. This writing and expressing my own holiness is not fearful, it is how many will awaken to their holiness within.

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]]> https://www.twelvemonthselflove.com/1-day-9-extending-love-to-my-self/feed/ 2 372 1. Day 6: Judgment Meets It’s Maker https://www.twelvemonthselflove.com/day-6-judgment-meets-its-maker/ https://www.twelvemonthselflove.com/day-6-judgment-meets-its-maker/#comments Wed, 02 Apr 2014 06:00:08 +0000 http://www.twelvemonthselflove.com/?p=350 I frequently begin a post with my thoughts, as that is how I live. As I am aware of my thoughts and how I relate to them so goes my day. How I relate to my thoughts produces my experience. So I extend space to my thoughts. I am afraid I will lose myself and not feel joy in the face of commitment. I love a fluid space in which to work, I instantly give myself rules and quotas and am hard and...

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