qualities of fear – A Twelvemonth of Self Love

12. Day 26: Raw [Spiritual] Food

Eva Lisle — Thu, 26 Mar 2015 15:50:38 +0000

I have been practicing extending love to my epic fears and writing about my experiences for nearly one year in A Twelvemonth of Self Love (twelve months & 362 posts) and still I must choose love as my operating system instead of fear. I must actually, consciously choose love. Why isn’t it completely automatic? Why do fears still arise? Fear must be a wake up call, a rubber band around my wrist I...

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11. Day 2: The Language Of Success

Eva Lisle — Mon, 02 Feb 2015 13:09:07 +0000

I am at the “just noticing” stage of my fear of success. One of the things that drew my attention was the language of success. The words you use to describe success, the attitude behind success or the results of success all have a familiar ring. There are certain qualities we tend to think of when we contemplate success, either our own or another’s. It is not just a goal has been met (though that...

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10. Day 21: A-Z of Fear

Eva Lisle — Wed, 21 Jan 2015 13:23:39 +0000

Fear in all it’s glorious forms and colors is all that stands in our way from being aware of Love’s Divine Presence all the time. There is no need to fear fear itself. Fear is nothing more than a contraction, a sharp intake of breath, a collapsing of thought. The more I shine the light on my fears the more they just seem like different coloring crayons used for shading, drama and spark. Still.

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6. Day 24: Cascade Of Joy & Gratitude

Eva Lisle — Wed, 24 Sep 2014 12:07:32 +0000

Annoyance is a quality of my tiredness. Or is tiredness a quality of my annoyance? Let’s just say they come together. Recently our older corgi, Matilda had a rash that got infected. Yuck and ugh. The vet gave her a long course of antibiotics and special shampoo. Of course I have to administer both, which is nearly as much fun at root canal work without the benefit of a kind dentist.

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3. Day 30: Veil Sale

Eva Lisle — Mon, 30 Jun 2014 12:06:33 +0000

Today is the last day of extending love to guilt for this month three of my Twelvemonth of Self Love project. What is exceedingly obvious now is that guilt is not the truth about me. It is but a story of “not-me” I believe for a while until I return to my right mind, or sanity or the awareness of God-is-Love’s Presence. I have learned I can drop the veil of guilt at any time and experience the...

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3. Day 15: A Drop In Love Pressure

Eva Lisle — Sun, 15 Jun 2014 12:02:26 +0000

What does guilt feel like, in my body? It feels metallic, like an acid bath; cold heat, systemic, down and up from center, pouring, searing a thudding FULL STOP. It feels like what I imagine a mild electrocution might feel like. Me: Holy Spirit, what is this and why does it act in this way? HS: Dearest One, this experience you have with guilt is visceral, though not universal. You feel and are...

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2. Day 1: Hello Depression

Eva Lisle — Thu, 01 May 2014 05:00:04 +0000

I wondered how it would happen. At 4:37am I woke up and KNEW my next epic fear. It is DEPRESSION. For the first time this pall, this cloud, this vortex of thought and despair did not make my heart go cold and my head go numb. It had already happened the day before when a dear friend eked out: “Everything is difficult; I don’t want to do anything; everything seems heavy; I don’t see the point any...

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