Blocks to Love’s presence – A Twelvemonth of Self Love

6. Day 3: My Tiredness Is A Knitted Scarf

Eva Lisle — Wed, 03 Sep 2014 12:01:52 +0000

I have been aware of my mantra of tiredness for weeks. My daily blogging has allowed me to see just how constantly I affirm this. I had a very full week last week and needed a 20 min nap between appointments. Just as I laid down this phrase came to me, like a feather floating up in front of me: “My tiredness is a knitted scarf. It is beautiful, intricate and well made. Yet it is 120 degrees.

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5. Day 4: Walk With Me

Eva Lisle — Mon, 04 Aug 2014 12:02:28 +0000

I am really feeling the end of weeks, nay months, of constant importance of right now (weddings, graduations, commissioning, reunions, travels etc). I feel ready to be done with it. There have been so many important, wonderful events, visits, transitions and they are taking their toll of sorts. I can’t quite express it but a lot of seeming “once in a lifetime” feelings have left me feeling rather...

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3. Day 19: M & M’s and Sunglasses!

Eva Lisle — Thu, 19 Jun 2014 12:03:54 +0000

We have had the most wonderful time in the last days and weeks celebrating our daughter’s graduation from university. Family and friends gathered in so many ways from so many places. We ate, drank and made merry in all the usual ways. I bought so many groceries that I was given honorary staff status at our local Bel Air and Whole Foods; candles were lit, pina colada’s mixed, laundry run...

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3. Day 8: Going Rogue: Should & Should Not

Eva Lisle — Sun, 08 Jun 2014 12:48:37 +0000

Holy Spirit continues remind me of the truth about me. As I was writing my last post I clicked a button and lost everything. Because I was in that beautiful space with Holy Spirit I really noticed how I wanted to beat myself up for this mistake and waste of my time but didn’t. I wanted to be annoyed and throw up my hands and say “Forget it!” but I did not. Something the HS had just said kept...

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2. Day 25: Fear Of Being Wrong

Eva Lisle — Sun, 25 May 2014 12:06:31 +0000

Let’s just get this one right out in the open for all to see. We are all afraid of being wrong. Because right is, well, RIGHT. Wrong is NOT being right. Wrong is confirmation of being wrong; missing the mark; not being good enough (or fast enough or clever enough). Wrong is the opposite of getting what you thought you wanted. Wrong is losing, forgetting, being late. Wrong is your Mother winning...

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2. Day 10: I Am Enough

Eva Lisle — Sat, 10 May 2014 05:00:43 +0000

I will continue with the “21 Fear Salute” which acknowledges the cluster of thoughts and fears depression includes and ask Holy Spirit about each one. Me: HS, please help me understand why closed questions are a part of the thoughts of depression? HS: Closed questions keep all focus within easy reach. They keep you from noticing your thoughts, feelings, and your true voice. Me: What is a closed...

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1. Day 19: A Block to Love’s (& Commitment’s) Presence

Eva Lisle — Sat, 19 Apr 2014 05:00:47 +0000

In meditation I had this thought: The layered difficult circumstances that I thought were “why” I couldn’t express my Self (not the right time; someone will be upset/hurt; this is heresy; it’s not my place) I saw as a bulwark dam I had built to keep from expressing truth. Why did I do this to myself? HS: Dearest One, This is an experience you give yourself over and over again just to see how long...

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