call for love – A Twelvemonth of Self Love

12. Day 2: Do Feelings Lie?

Eva Lisle — Mon, 02 Mar 2015 13:12:00 +0000

Here are some hard truths I am learning about what I think about feelings. (I notice I am still thinking about them rather than feeling them but I have to start somewhere.) I was a little surprised as I thought I would describe myself as emotional; I cry when certain ads come on, I respond with laughter or tears as is called for, I have been told (by my Mother when I was little) that I wear my...

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12. Day 1: Feelings: Black Hole Or Morning Star?

Eva Lisle — Sun, 01 Mar 2015 13:53:43 +0000

“I don’t know what to think about my feelings.” I said “Maybe that’s the problem. Thinking about them instead of feeling them.” she said. I was caught out the other day when I was experiencing nausea, headache and weepiness and discovered it was but a call for attendance and expression by some unacknowledged feelings. It made me wonder what else might be lurking inside...

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10. Day 31: A Beautiful Fear

Eva Lisle — Sat, 31 Jan 2015 14:53:00 +0000

The biggest shift I have had in this month of extending love to the fear of fear itself is finding that I m no longer afraid of fear. This does not mean that I don’t ever feel a feeling of fear (or annoyance, doubt or guilt) but that I can recognize the feel, taste and texture so much more quickly and can acknowledge it for what it is. Namely, a call to pause, ASK for guidance, help...

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9. Day 4: A Call In The Middle Of The Night

Eva Lisle — Thu, 04 Dec 2014 13:57:32 +0000

One of the epic fears we all face and dread is the call in the middle of the night. It is disorienting, shocking, stunning and exhilarating all at the same time. There is something very galvanizing and clarifying about the call, that has a power all its own. In the space of a single message two people integral to our lives, hearts and businesses were taken to hospital. The feeling of helplessness...

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6. Day 24: Cascade Of Joy & Gratitude

Eva Lisle — Wed, 24 Sep 2014 12:07:32 +0000

Annoyance is a quality of my tiredness. Or is tiredness a quality of my annoyance? Let’s just say they come together. Recently our older corgi, Matilda had a rash that got infected. Yuck and ugh. The vet gave her a long course of antibiotics and special shampoo. Of course I have to administer both, which is nearly as much fun at root canal work without the benefit of a kind dentist.

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3. Day 27: Guilt, The Greatest Call For Love

Eva Lisle — Fri, 27 Jun 2014 12:01:37 +0000

Me: Holy Spirit, what IS the purpose of guilt? HS: Precious One, The purpose of guilt is threefold: to close your eyes to grace to dampen your spirit to forget the truth Guilt uses all thinking to accomplish this; everything you have ever thought, done, not thought or not done. Guilt is the great God covering, making it appear you are separate from God. You don’t question it because you can see...

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2. Day 8: The Great Drawing Within

Eva Lisle — Thu, 08 May 2014 05:00:49 +0000

I had a great experience with depression the other day I keep meaning to write down. I got some very unexpected news, which kind of blindsided me. I noticed I felt a heavy dragging on my chest, it felt a betrayal of sorts. I felt pitiful, lonely, left out and annoyed all at the same time. I just let all of those feelings be ok. I didn’t try to change or fix it. I just extended the quality of love...

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1. Day 29: Being Here Now

Eva Lisle — Tue, 29 Apr 2014 05:00:43 +0000

I continue to feel the tidal pull between business, my spiritual practice of my commitment to extending love to my fears and wanting to be with family. The pull of the actions commitment seems to require is great. It is hard to sit still and meditate or BE in the face of commitment (even if it is a commitment to facing my fear and blogging about it). I must not really understand commitment or what...

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