Fear of Not-Knowing

8. Day 24: Ancient (& Modern) Tourist Lore

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8. Day 24:  Ancient (& Modern) Tourist Lore

It was rather thrilling to be standing in front of the possible grave of a person of great historical interest, namely King Arthur.  That he may or may not have existed is entirely beside the point.  Or maybe that is my point.  We were standing in the threshold of the Lady Chapel at the Abbey at Glastonbury chatting with two locals on “King Arthur:  Myth Or Mystery?”  Apparently it is thought that the legend of King Arthur is based in some facts of actual persons but the legend itself was started by locals hundreds of years ago to promote the region.  Ancient tourist lore!  The...

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8. Day 23: To Glastonbury & Beyond!

Posted by on Nov 23, 2014 in All-One, Fear of Not-Knowing | 1 comment

8. Day 23:  To Glastonbury & Beyond!

To really dive head first into experiencing Not-Knowing I recommend driving in a foreign country.  There is nothing like it.  To really cement the true feeling of NOT KNOWING it is best to drive really fast in a country where few speed limits are posted and your car has both miles and kilometers marked and you can’t actually tell what speed you are driving anyway. To further enrich the moment it is best if you can’t tell your right from your left and when you are turning onto the motorway you can’t quite remember which side of the road you are supposed to be on.  Now, do this with your wife...

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8. Day 22: Not-Knowing So Far…

Posted by on Nov 22, 2014 in All-One, Fear of Not-Knowing | 4 comments

8. Day 22:  Not-Knowing So Far…

As I flowed with the crowds exiting the Bakerloo Line to get to the Circle Line I could hear hundreds of all kinds of voices in animated conversation, then I heard the barest strain of something different.  A tune, a melody of guitar and mouth organ that became louder with each step.  It was a haunting Irish tune that became stronger and more discernible as we neared the musician busking.  In the moments it took to pass, the music was all I could hear and the voices seemed to fall away in my awareness.  Both music and voices were present and my awareness just shifted in focus and...

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8. Day 21: Homing Device

Posted by on Nov 21, 2014 in All-One, Fear of Not-Knowing | 0 comments

8. Day 21:  Homing Device

Today, in the middle of the British Museum, for no apparent reason, I had a wave of longing for home wash over me. Instead of brushing it off or telling myself “But there is so much here to delight in!” I let the feelings flow through me.  I could feel myself sinking into my sofa at home, my corgi sitting next to me and I nearly wept.  There is nothing here I want to avoid, and nothing in particular I was missing but the feeling of longing for home was palpable.  This feeling of home in my heart is what calls us all home.  Home is where the heart is.  I am loving each and every...

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8. Day 20: The Speed Of Darkness

Posted by on Nov 20, 2014 in All-One, Fear of Not-Knowing | 2 comments

8. Day 20:  The Speed Of Darkness

The sun set at 4:07 pm today.  Even at noon the sun is low in the sky.  There is just not lots of light compared to what I am used to in California, we are much farther north than I realized.  This lack of light and early darkness is bringing an unexpected benefit.  It slows us down even further.  My husband is Australian and we often joke, even in California, that if a cloud passes in front of the sun he wilts or falls asleep.  So when 4:30 pm rolls around and the sun has disappeared we automatically start slowing down and looking for the train home. Darkness is like silence for the eyes....

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8. Day 19: Silence & Simplicity

Posted by on Nov 19, 2014 in All-One, Fear of Not-Knowing, Holy Spirit Abroad | 0 comments

8. Day 19:  Silence & Simplicity

I love that I keep getting plenty of opportunity to extend love to Not-Knowing…….by not knowing how our holidays (or the afternoon) will unfold.  It seems both completely unreal and completely natural that we are here, in London, living in a little cottage near Notting Hill Gate station.  We buy groceries at Tesco, go to Boots for a new flat iron (I decided when mine burnt the handkerchief I was holding it with because it was so hot, it was time to go native) and we walk everywhere.  Yet there are many times we feel displaced and unsure what we are doing here exactly.  It is a...

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