4. Day 24: When You Utterly Relax Into The Light
After celebrating my daughter’s 21 st birthday yesterday (in fact the fun continues for the next few days;) I was asking myself, what is it I am actually letting go in seeing her move on into what the world seems to agree on as adulthood, after all she has been living on her own at college, flew to Italy alone last summer and has already voted in a Presidential election? When I think of letting go as saying goodbye I am filled with conflicting emotions, happy/sad, delight/doubt, jubilation/trepidation. When I allow the thought of letting go as possibly me opening my eyes and letting...
Read More4. Day 22 & Day 23: 21 Years True
The sharing of this letting go required two days worth to include both Australian and American sides of the story. Well, actually, it has required 21 years (and counting). Today is my youngest daughter’s 21st birthday. It is cause for celebration, shopping, laughing, candles, champagne………..and reflection. I am beginning to realize the gift of letting go is most often in the reflection of all that has come before the seeming “moment” of letting go. In this case my daughter’s arrival began in the middle of the night in Brisbane, Australia with a...
Read More4. Day 21: How Do I Love Thee?
The days have been so full and my quiet time and meditation are happening in all kinds of ways (and at odd times) and I am feeling a little discombobulated. Where do I need my awareness to grow? HS: Let us nestle together in peace now. Abide in me as I abide in you. Bring me the treasures of my heart that I may once again know the truth. “How Do I Love Thee?” How do I love Thee, let me count the ways in innocence, in pain, in strength, in loneliness in joy, in sadness, in bereavement, and in gladness in toil, in rest, in anger, in jest in truth, in lying, in living and...
Read More4. Day 20: You Are The Truth Of Your Path
There are times I question the path I am on. This spiritual path of knowing and trusting that not only God is Love but Love is God called me by name and I could not NOT answer. It would have been easier staying in church but that felt so limiting somehow. No doubt it was a limit I imposed on myself but even though I am happy where and who I am, I long for the old days of certainty. This is a path of embracing not-knowing. Sometimes, like today, the not-knowing is just too big and I want to go back to KNOWing without shadow or doubt. Time to extend love to my thoughts. I extend beauty to...
Read More4. Day 19: Let Go OH NO!
Letting go today was all about letting go of my old friend panic. Every time I thought “OH NO!” (Oh no, I’m not ready/ Oh no, I’m too busy and I don’t have enough time/ Oh no, it’s NOT time to eat again/ Oh no, I’m too tired for this now) in prepping for meetings, Crocker tours, writing a blog post, wondering what we would have for dinner I let go (again) of “Oh NO!!” It became my mantra today “LET GO OH NO/ LET GO OH NO/ LET GO OH NO”. I am grateful for this practice even though (especially) it shows me how I cling to...
Read More4. Day 18: The Opposite Of Letting Go
I have noticed how hard it is for our family to leave the house. It is a never ending, staggering, ridiculous parade of almost getting into the car but not quite that can take upwards of 20 minutes (more if we are going farther than the state border). It is like escaping the pull of gravity and feels like the very opposite of let go. It is almost comical but frequently annoying. What gives? How can I feel peace about this? HS: Now is not fleeting. It is All. Now is vast holiness, ever present and mindful, complete acceptance and welcome. Now is no-time. Wordless joy of being....
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